The other side is not quite reached yet, but I have managed a considerable shift in mindset: Showing up and doing the work is the piece of advice most given when it comes to success/improvement/advancement in almost any activity, yet it is the hardest to do. In my case, as soon as I made the decision to commit, adding public witnesses- great gratitude goes to the NaNoWriMo community who started my ball rolling-, this elusive attitude took root in my commitment-phobic, neurotic brain and silenced all that psycho babble which kept me immobilized and procrastinating in the past. Don’t ask me to analyze how and why this happened, I’m still somewhat afraid to jinx the ease and carefree swagger with which I show up every day to do the work…inspiration not a necessary ingredient, letting go very much so.
The output you see here might not seem like a big deal, quantity or quality wise, but believe me my spirit is a party of luminous, exploding fireworks right now. After years of analysis paralysis it feels like a spell has been lifted and all I can think of is that I was finally sick of struggling!